Projects... Auditions, Writing and "Dystopia"!!!

A lot has been happening... I can't deny I'm tired. Enthusiastically tired and sometimes on the verge of been diagnosed with a bipolar disorder:) I've been auditioning a lot which is good, I've been sending emails to casting directors and agencies, using casting platforms to apply for jobs... I managed to get my commercial showreel done too. I sent thousands of emails these last three weeks... I've been shortlisted for 5 potential jobs. I'm waiting. Well, part of me is waiting. Deep inside I'll never wait. Because "waiting" will never be in my "to do list!

There's something weird happening to me... when you get too many "No" answers or "Unfortunately" answers, you start getting desensitize. Maybe I'm not on the verge of a bipolar disorder, maybe I am on the verge of a psychopathy disorder:) I feel nothing. My body and mind is protecting me somehow. I think I just let myself feel when I am acting, when I'm reading or writing or preparing a scene, because most of the time, I just feel this weird lack of pain or frustration or empathy. Is this normal? LOL

I finished writing a screenplay: 105 pages. Will I ever have the chance to actually turn these pages into real images? I don't know... I've noticed that Edward Burns  has published a book "Independent Ed". I'll definitely buy it! I bought his screenplays too. Maybe his book will give some clues and strength to move forward.

Now I'm outlining my next screenplay. I wrote 30 pages so far. I have the rest of the story in my head but my characters talk... and when I say "they talk", I really mean it. They truly express themselves through words. I love words.  I am truly inspired by Woody Allen too. The voices of actresses like Dianne Wiest and Judy Davis and Mia Farrow back in the 70's and 80's... those voices are music to my hears. 

There's a film I watched recently too: "Mary and John" with Mia Farrow and Dustin Hoffman. Yesterday I fell asleep watching Frasier....

I have to go now... I need to write... 

But before I would like to share here a link of a project I auditioned for: "Dystopia": A new time travel Tv show: a mission to save the humanity's survival. 

This is my audition tape. I didn't get the role by the way, but potentially I'll have the chance to play another character in one of the first episodes. Fingers crossed! The casting director and the people I've been in touch with have been so professional and clear with me. I am truly grateful to have auditioned for this project. Maybe I can use this tape for future projects as a reference. As someone once said: "Nothing is lost, everything is transformed!" I am not going to play this nurse but... I'll turn this opportunity into something else!!:)