The Importance of Making Decisions

           We all have those days where we don’t want to move a finger. We just feel like staying at home the whole day, laying on the sofa, watching movies, eating popcorn or chocolates, cooking, stop thinking about plans and about what we need to do to move forward. The problem with an artist’s career is that we have to manage our own time. Most of the time we don’t have deadlines because the objectives and the work to be done are very personal, so the plans become just “my plans”, “my projects”. But how many projects do we really materialize? I lost the number of times that I had a coffee to talk about projects, traumatized as I am about the number of ghost projects that I heard about, I am now trying to be extremely focused, because, for an artistic mind it’s so easy to have ideas and more ideas and feel completely lost without knowing where to start. That’s why we see so many people that have the power and money to get things done, stealing ideas from precious or lost minds without any kind of scruples.

          One thing that I learned in one of my acting classes is the importance of making a decision. Decision is a scary word because we have to eliminate or to put on standby other potential good options, but at the end, it helps a lot, it cleans up the mind. For instance, we always have thousands of monologues and different ways of playing them, deep inside we always feel we could play it much better, shot after shot. Perfectionism is a good quality because it makes us improve ourselves every single day but it can also stop us from doing things if we always feel that what we do is never enough. It happens with me a lot and I am learning to make decisions then letting it go because it’s impossible to please everyone and ourselves at once. 

        A friend of mine told me that she is always awful when being interviewed. She feels all the energy concentrated in her head and suddenly if somebody asks her a very simple question like: "what’s your favorite animal and why?" she doesn’t know or she answers as if she is not very sure. Or what’s your favorite Shakespeare character or play and why? For me it became really handy to write things down about myself, to decide “who is this person with whom I live with everyday?”, and to study myself a bit to be able to talk about this “me” and be proud of it. I found out that this process is never finished; I am always discovering things and forgetting important things as well. I think this blog came as a result of this process.