I did it! I cut it!
Long centimetres of hair that I kept for years and years... afraid of changing, afraid of waiting too long to see it grow again, afraid of having less choices when it comes to hairstyling, just afraid... I always loved my long hair though. I always embraced it confidently. I was afraid of changing but at same time I was ok about my hairstyle. Until one day. I don't know exactly when but around September 2015, I started having a lot of doubts about my hair. Well... deep inside, 2015 was a tough year with doubts at many levels. Not only about my hairstyle but about myself. It's true that I achieved a lot but at some point I felt I was collapsing inside. I had to learn to stand up for myself more, defining and redefining relationships.
I don't know if you believe in star signs or in destiny or astral maps, but when I am slightly lost and confused, I tend to be more sensitive and open to any explanation for my messy life. One of the explanations came from two friends who love astrology. I listened to them and one of the things both of them mentioned was: "there's a tempest coming, a moment of confusion that will last three months maybe". And in fact, deep inside, I went through major changes.
There's a popular blogger that I follow who started blogging 12 years ago. Back then, blogs were anonymous. No one knew her. Her thoughts and confessions didn't have a filter. Since she revealed a picture of herself, her writing and content changed. The commercial purpose of the blog had to respect certain standards which ended up limiting what she could write. Sometimes I have thoughts running through my head, less nice and likeable stuff. Private stuff. Deep and intimate stuff. Deep thoughts about life and about myself. Those conversations that we all have with ourselves.
Well... I wish I could be more open about certain things here... but well... I'll share what I can. I'll share that behind my haircut there was a psychological crises that triggered some major decisions. I read an article the other day saying that when women cut their hair, they are actually cutting off so much more. Might be true. Might not be so true. In my case, it was entirely true. I feel so much better now with shorter hair. I feel my hair is easier to style and I embrace it so much more now. Its full of volume and movement as well. I loved my long hair. But I think this new haircut is definitely aligned with some important psychological changes. Everything happened at the same time so it can't be just a coincidence. A more sceptical and practical explanation would be: my hair was weak from hairdryers, products and washes and it needed a cut to regrow healthier and stronger. But...yes... there was a lot more going on I must confess.
Rachel Bartlett from Tony and Guy was responsible for my haircut. :)
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