Audition Suprises

       On Monday I had an audition for a feature film. When I read the character description I thought "Why did they choose me to audition for this role?" As perfectionist as I am, and always inspired by challenges, I studied the script and embraced the role as an opportunity to explore something out of my comfort zone. Everything was a surprise for me starting from the character as well as the audition day in general. When I got there, I couldn't find the door number. I tried to call them and send them a message to confirm I was at the right location but I was running out of battery which meant I couldn't get through anyone. I walked up and down the street and knocked on every door asking if they knew about any audition happening somewhere. I was already giving up when a guy suddenly came after me - who either recognised me or received my message  - and took me to the right location. When I got there, I realised that I was not crazy and the address I had was just wrong. I was late but luckily  the director had decided to take a break. I confirmed the script with them and the scene I had prepared and suddenly I was surprised again when they asked about "the other scene". I just said "hum... I just received one scene and everything was confirmed by email". They said: "There should not be a problem, we'll explain the situation to the director ". They told me to relax and sit down because the director would be back in 15/20 minutes. After 5 minutes they came back again asking me to have a look at this four page scene, the scene I didn't receive by email and the one that everyone in the waiting room was somehow prepared for. Well, I started stressing out a bit, maybe more than I should, but I really wanted to do a good audition, specially if the character was so different from everything I've tried before. Even if I don't get the part, I like to give my best and feel that I prepared as much as I could, but everything on that day, seemed to be happening against me. When I got to the audition room, I definitely felt comfortable with the director, the cameraman and the young producer who was reading the scene with me. They were really helpful and understood my situation regarding the surprising extra scene. I still don't have high hopes regarding the audition but when I was returning home back then, I was feeling good. I was feeling good because I didn't give up when I spent almost an hour trying to find the location, I didn't give up when I had to prepare an extra scene out of nowhere, I kept auditioning even feeling that I was terrible and all over the place. I was lucky to have a good audition panel who didn't laugh at me or didn't roll their eyes at my ridiculous reading. I was happy to have failed and to find out that I really need to practice more my cold reading skills and allow myself more space to be surprised without stressing so much. When we stress we don't listen to our intuition which is everything we need to decide in unpredictable moments. I've found out that there are things we'll never be prepared for and on those moments we need to have faith and trust in ourselves more than anything else.