Usually we are so nervous that we leave the room without remembering the faces of those on the panel, the casting director's face, the client's face, the cameraman... or even the colour of the walls. Off course, the audition is about the actor and is about getting the right one and we want to be the special one. Especially if your Dad has called you recently saying that he is worried about you, your career and your future. Well... The picture can get even worst... So let's make it worst... The waiting room is full of nice people, everyone is great, we almost forget that we're competing... when suddenly a girl, who has just finished her audition, shows up and someone screams from the inside: "Great job! Simply amazing... Well done! Seriously! Great interpretation!!!". We pretend we don't care or that we're happy for her and we start thinking of million ways to relax ourselves: we think of sunbathing on the beach, we start remembering positive affirmations that we read on a self help book - The Secret ????- which makes me even more nervous and self conscious of... ME... me, me, me. And then... I become my worst enemy!
Well but this didn't happen yesterday... (Part of this didn't happen yesterday:)) and simply because.... I'M GETTING TIRED OF ME!! I'm getting tired of worrying about me, my performance, my anxiety and Blablabla... I'm really tired of me:) Which I find very relaxing! Seriously! :)
This is not just about me. It's about communication. It's about sharing and giving and listening... and seeing things... Those people on the panel are... guess what... people, exactly like me. They have dreams and worries, they get sick too, they get nervous, they fail as well, they might drink and get drunk sometimes and they might be silly too. We're not suppose to be friends and to turn the audition room into a therapy session but it's good to be realistic and to forget a little about ourselves.
Verdade! Somos todos humanos!
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